what do i know?

what do i know?
fog, familial smells, food
articulation, modulation and
dazed dance of whirling exclamations

so i know, you know, they know

fate, pursued doggedly in the desert by blind disregard
fate, vain wailings of an uncaring lover
fate, wiles of an overindulgent paramour
fate, weighed bundles of memories
surreptitiously surfacing
without permission, without guilt
at unguarded, unexpected moments
fate, faux concern, inundating, overwhelming
fate, created, manufactured, discovered
what do i know?

(why memories have no guilt?)

raat gayee, ruut gayee,
rooth gaíayee yeh dunya

present, an obe experience
mindís ever recording camera
capturing kodak moments
re-surfacing in unguarded moments
mortifying melancholic memories,
truck-loads of captured moments
weighed, wrapped and dropped in mid ocean
emerge unannounced, unexpectedly
to devour happiness, no
to gnaw at absence of sadness

fate, who knows besides
what do i know?